Christian and Depressed

How can you be a Christian and still depressed?

That is the misconception about being a Christian. Just because you are one does not mean your problems and pain all go away. In all honesty, I think it gets worse.
Satan loves to tempt us, hurt us, anyway possible because he wants to see us fall far more than those who are not christians. He loves to see us just hurt God with our sins and relishes in it. I don’t know about you but I feel sometimes being a Christian is a lot of pressure. Society has this idea of what a Christian is supposed to be and if we are not even an inch close to that we are put down for it; which makes our depression worse. We feel we are not good enough and why would God love someone who is so messed up?

Here is the reminder: God loves the broken. It wasn’t until I was older on how i finally understood that statement. I am a broken messed up ball of craziness, and God loves every ounce of me.

Now, I am bringing in Tyler Joseph (Twenty One Pilots frontman; yet again) to express just how Christians this day and age probably feel. Now, let me be clear, not all christians feel this way but I know a lot of us do and I feel Tyler (who is a Christian) puts these songs together so perfectly.

Drown:

 

 

 

I wanna be a lot of things, so much pent-up inside of me
I wanna be stronger, too long I’ve sat here undecidedly
Planning strategy, half of me know it’s all just a fallacy
Failing miserably, drastically and then I crash dramatically
Into a wall I’ve hit a hundred times before
And yet I still ignore the dark red blood stains on the floor
And I’m back in front of you, Lord, with the blood on the floor
Is the blood mine or yours? Don’t wanna do this anymore

Addict with a Pen:

 

 

I try desperately to run through the sand
As I hold the water in the palm of my hand
‘Cause it’s all that I have and it’s all that I need and
The waves of the water mean nothing to me
But I try my best and all that I can
To hold tightly onto what’s left in my hand
But no matter how, how tightly I will strain
The sand will slow me down and the water will drain
I’m just being dramatic, in fact, I’m only at it again
As an addict with a pen, who’s addicted to the wind
As it blows me back and forth, mindless, spineless, and pretend
Of course I’ll be here again, see you tomorrow, but it’s the end of today
End of my ways as a walking denial
My trial was filed as a crazy suicidal head case
But you specialize in dying, you hear me screaming “father”
And I’m lying here just crying, so wash me with your water

Save Me:

 

Head tilted down, knees on the ground
And I will ask, “Please… Save!
Save me! Please, save, save!
Save me, save me, save me, save me, save me, save me

I deserve for You to turn away
I was ashamed to speak Your name
I can’t believe that all You see
Is that You have covered me gracefully

You’re all I want to be
You’re all I’ll ever need
Jesus…
Jesus, please… Save Me!

Powerful stuff, right? Tyler is broken, raw, and hurting, just like many of us are. Christian or not, many can understand exactly what he is saying here. I love these songs because It shows I am not alone and I know that others can understand just a little bit that i am feeling; Even a music artist like Tyler Joseph.

So what is the solution of being depressed and a Christian? well, there isn’t a “fix-all” option for anyone that is depressed but if you truly are a Christian and believe in Jesus Christ with your whole heart and mind, there are a few things. Go to church, worship him, read the bible, and find a small group. It may sound easy but in reality it isn’t. Satan will attack you and will tempt you to make excuses to just not go or not do anything. But you have to realize that we are not alone, and we should surround ourselves with those just like us; People who genuinely love the Lord.

Also, PRAY. Sometimes it may seem like a one way street and you feel God isn’t listening, but in reality he is Listening; real question is, are you paying attention? God shows up in ways we least or don’t expect and we have to keep all our senses open and just feel the Holy Spirit within us.

You can also help those who need help; Especially those who do not know the Lord. This is your testimony and your walk, this is where you can show others that it is ok to be broken and that they are not alone. We were all put on this earth for a reason and certain things have happened to everyone one of us for a reason; we need to use that reason to help others bring them closer to God. If we have been hurt in such a bad way, we might as well use it for Good, right?

So remember to tell yourself this: I am a Christian, I am broken, I am going to be okay.

– J

(Check out my post about depression and suicide here)

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